Are you bored yet?

these reckless lust so insane, every touch making me feel alive. this rush of adrenaline in my vein whenever our bodies touch fingers dancing together every time they meet the gush warmth spreading in my bones the care, making my heart melt, these hug that feels like home, the kiss that would never feel like sin. Genuine love blooming inside, I can feel you smiling, cuddling me safely beside the way you held me is all I need I am ready to take all the risk this intimacy is the lover's promise to stay this is real, feelings of love as I speak, I wish this never ends, I hope this isn’t a sweet dream, believing the world has somehow shifted. ' ' ' ' I woke up with tears in my eyes as the realisation hit me up this wasn’t real, this wasn’t real, this wasn’t real.. this wasn’t real, Afterall. what was that, just a sweet ill...

You stepped into my world,  a bittersweet lost soul, there was so much more to you than a pretty face I see through your deceiving smile, sad loathed weary eyes,  how  your expressi on carry a mournful melancholy you hate how feeble yet cold you have become timorous in your skin, wanting to end the misery shaking of your bones, heartsick        my darling you are the prettiest form to exist, nature's loved creation  people did you wrong,  they tore your halo apart jealous of the way you shone ripped your wings, used you over and over again thinking you'll fall apart, too cruel for your kindness they drove you insane, called misery upon themselves and                                                                                   ...

when the day dissolved into night and I lost the sense of passing time my blank canvas in mind started to fill with noises inside to not dwell into the chaos I closed my eyes and thought of all the lies caught in the illusion of the blurred line between asleep and awake ...

why are you horrified of me? this is the souvenir you gifted, me as a kid as a teenager as an adult these are the scars you craved on my body, these calloused skin on my back saying you care, the token of love, as you say, so, why are you turning your eyes away? Now you stop me to show the 'society' who you really are? and what you did? were not you the one who boasted about it where is your confidence now? wasn't this the right and only thing that would have brought me to my senses, when you did it to me hidden from eyes, in the dark. so, what you feel so scared of - when my silent screams get volume when my eyes start dripping pain when the wounds show up of surface again- where is your confidence now wasn't this the right and only thing that would have brought me to my senses when you did it to me hidden from eyes of the society why are you ashmed now? when I am the one bearing the scars when i was the one crying all nights wishing me dead on the stars so, why you...

Can you sense it? The screams of silence between my heartbeat, The tears of agony my heart pumps, the yearning for love and peace flowing in my arteries and the sadness my viens collect from my body?