AN ODE TO MY MOTHER

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why are you horrified of me?

this is the souvenir you gifted,

me as a kid as a teenager as an adult

these are the scars you craved on my body,

these calloused skin on my back

saying you care, the token of love,

as you say,

so,

why are you turning your eyes away?

Now you stop me to show the 'society'

who you really are? and what you did?

were not you the one who boasted about it

where is your confidence now?

wasn't this the right and only thing

that would have brought me to my senses,

when you did it to me hidden from eyes, in the dark.

so,

what you feel so scared of -

when my silent screams get volume

when my eyes start dripping pain

when the wounds show up of surface again-

where is your confidence now

wasn't this the right and only thing

that would have brought me to my senses

when you did it to me hidden from eyes of the society

why are you ashmed now?

when I am the one bearing the scars

when i was the one crying all nights

wishing me dead on the stars

so,

why you hate me now, mother?

isn't this all what you did for sake of me????

why are you giving up now?

am i finally a monster in your eyes

or just a threat to bring you down

and cover your clean act with

the ink of what you are really.

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