ABTRUSE FEELINGS

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It starts with blurred fine line
from consignment of doubts
unpacked every nightfall for the search of answers, in haste
the more complicated, and overwhelming it gets,
a stampeding noise within the mind
for all the 'what is this?'
Is it,
childish thoughts of trauma or vileness constrained within my flesh
love from the heart or just sickly whimsical to belong somewhere true hatred towards life or just melancholic dissatisfaction
another lost, despondent person or really defeated at last?
I can't comprehend 'what am I?'
so as the dawn arises, leaving the quest
of searching an identity, in the obscurity
I, like most of people, put on that cursed
veil of deception pretending to be something.
And the question awaits....
to be answered ...




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