Are you bored yet?

18.08.2022 It was actually not exactly bad. I might have been in the moment of happiness for a while… that’s a good thing to be honest So as soon as clock struck midnight, I told me happy birthday and slept, even tho I knew my friend would call. There were thoughts going inside saddening me inside and that may sound absurd but I don’t exactly regret sleeping and ghosting people wishing me hbd.. selfish it is but peace it was for me . Then I woke and same brush and morning chores of cleaning and all and then read the birthday wishes from people and replying n all... bathed, prayed had some breakfast. And then the whole 1 st half of day was over like that just me laying here and there, in the evening I went out to buy some treats and get the cake and it started raining lightly, and as a smartass I am I drove in that shower, bought some snacks to make me happy, picked up my cake then I came back home got ready, it took me like an hour something maybe? I did bit makeup after like ...

  I woke up and I'm feeling this huge emptiness, anxiety and yearning for my beloved.  I miss you so much I wish you were here, so I didn't feel not as lonely as I feel now. I want to meet you, talk to you, wake up beside you , cook for you and when we are sitting and enjoying tea, I tell you about my past and my present and what I feel about future.  I want my emptiness  filled with you touch, caresses, cuddles and affection, my anxiety to be calmed by the hug of your assurance and my desire to be desired be achieved by the way to treat me and you telling me it's okay to want this all and I deserve this without being judged. You are with me and you will always be and try your best to be my best .  And when you tell me something that makes you vulnerable I wanna kiss you gently on your forehead and wrists and make you known to the fact that I'm for here you always, I will be the shoulder you can lean on and the arms you can break into after a long day. I will ca...

Why are you so stuck on that person’s imagination ,you wish on your good luck to own them like a passion You are so blinded in your so-called love ; you can’t see the through what hurts what not  Mentally obsessed with a school boy crush, putting all you want on him in a rush  is this love or obsession? move on please Your desperation to make him yours will make your life worse All you want is to project all good qualities over him Going from all lonely and crying and being happy on a whim Yes, he is good and nice but he isn’t the only grain of rice  You deserve the love too, but not from him  Someone will come through to teach you life  They will be good and they will be nice  But only if you let them inside  You are hurting yourself all way down anxiety panic loneliness and boom  That’s not what love is about hurting own self to keep other one around  He isn’t even the one for you he made it clear quite a few, but ...

 I'm thinking to start a series on a particular topic or area and explore over it idk .  also I wanna like publish one blog per month at least I hope I can do it. amen! I wanna use my overthinking capabilities to help the world change for better like instead of having thoughts alone why don't I share it so that more people think about it all and we take a new small step in making the world better;)  I would love if you all leave comment about how you feel or don't as per your wish  hopefully I will be seen again till end of January . see ya sooooon 

Hello beautiful souls!! lets talk about a weird thing we all (i think) have once in life experienced and will experience  Unnamed relations are like the weirdest thing I have felt in my whole life time yet They aren’t particularly covered in a label but are like label fluid They are mostly in between- Sometimes extreme on one kind label then like in between floating or I say oscillating like waves from one point to other like crest  to trough (I aint that good in physics or anything lol!  But I love to compare irrelevant things) to other and so on… It’s so confusing and sometimes it’s annoys and fuss your whole inner peace like a full speed train running to a brick wall {here train is thought and confusion of the relation related tension and wall is your heart feelings emotion and peace of mind} It had… it happens a lot with me (what about u??) Like, Do I consider my parents my parents? Is my feeling right for them? (Long story I will detail it all later in...

😁 Hey-y'all! I want to keep my name and identity a secret right-now ... bu t I want to share some personal thoughts out to the world and know other peoples view on topics I cant talk to others directly cause of *what will they think of me*?! Its 30 may of 2021 when I'm starting this blog cause I just wanna bring a change, in me, in u,in us. I want to talk form an opinion, develop character and hopefully "Make world and internet a Home for people who are unique in their way but cant see that" I am planning to talk about issues I as a student, a human and  know the different aspects and difficulties people face to understand world and meaning of being in the world , alive. We all might not be same but we all are in same world and that is enough of reason to know and help each other. see ya all soon !! thanks for visiting and being a part of my blog and my world😄💖